KWOD 106.5 RIP

I got off the plane last night er.... this morning, and proceeded to drive home. Late at night I like to blast the radio from station to station. I have all the good stations programmed in a row on my radio (which I thought about 4) that were still cool enough to listen too.

So commercials on one, crappy song on another, I decided to flip to the Alternative, KWOD 106.5, my mainstay for nearly 20 years for cool new rock music.

WTF? Aerosmith? Janie's got a Gun?

Someone playing a joke?

No joke, apparently after umpteen years of playing the latest and greatest in rock music, KWOD 106.5 is now the BUZZ... Music from your prom, high school and bachelor (ette) party from the 90's.

The Buzz, 106.5... oh puke!!

Seriously went from Smells Like Teen Spirit... which is cool to Shania Twain's, "I feel like woman"

Give me a fucking break, WTF happened?

A simple "Thank You", How about Fuck you!!!

Bitter Tears

Along with pain, I get mood swings. It is a big cycle and it occurs when I least expect it.

So the past 24 hours I have been down. I feel like I am suffocating and can't breathe. I do not want to do shit for work or anything else. Maybe it is the pain syndrome I deal with or maybe I am genetically predispositioned for a bit of depression from time to time. Not everyone can carry the weight of the world.

I hate this. Funny thing is I can stand back and look at this saying, "It is just a cycle, you will come out of it." It's stupid to look at one's mental health this way. I look for alternative things to do. I actually think about leaving home to other places so I can just change the scenery to get stuff done. Right now, I am thinking of heading to Starbucks to get some projects done for work. I bet if I got out of here I can get more productive.

I look down at the floor and see Elijah's jeep. He is back home for the next week. I guess that is mostly why I am so down. I see his toys and they just sit without moving.

It kinda sucks.